I ask for you to please pray for me to regain my hope and trust in the Lord. And for a job. Im new to my work industry (2 years. I left the medical sales industry during Covid) as Mortgage Loan Officer, in which the industry has basically been destroyed by the insane inflation and highly elevated interest rates. This is not the line of work I want to be in and Ive been searching for a job in my previous field, medical sales, and in other Sales/Acct Management positions in other industries.
I have prayed asking the Lord to guide me and show me the job HE wants me to do, for a year now. With no success, constant rejection emails, and very little feedback and interest from any company. I dont feel like the Lord communicates with me, or that I dont know how to recognize his voice when he is communicating with me. I bought a daily Bible study guide and have been reading the Bible for 6 months now trying to learn more about the Lord and who he is, how he works. But, I cant help but feel like my prayers go unanswered, that Im not good enough in his eyes for any job I am qualified, and over qualified for, that Ive applied for. Im battling extreme fear, doubt, depression, and anxiety as I have nearly run through all my retirement and savings, with no sense of hope for a job in site. I am so full of anger and disappoint towards God–feeling that he is ignoring me and my prayers for help. That he is not, or will not, answer or help. I pray each day asking God to forgive me for sinning and feeling this way, but I hate to say that is how I truly feel.
I am desperate. I dont know how to pray, or what to say in prayer, any longer. And often when I do pray, the anger and disappointment Im filled with leads me to yelling and screaming and blaming God for not helping, not communicating, for not helping me to get out of this hole. Then I live with guilt for my words and actions towards God. So, I pray and ask for forgiveness, I ask for guidance, I ask for God to open up a door Im unable to open, etc. And repeat the cycle daily/weekly.
I havent had any luck praying for myself so Im asking for someone, anyone, to pray for me.
Thank you for your time and your prayer(s).
Tim
Return to Answered Prayers