A prayer for new beginnings

DEAR GOD, i AM A 40 YEAR OLD WOMAN WHO HOLDS SO MUCH FEAR, DEPRESSION, LACK OF CONFIDENCE, LACK OF STRENTH, LACK OF LOVING MYSELF, NOT BEING ABLE TO GIVE PROPER LOVE TO MY CHILDREN BECAUSE OF FEELING LIKE I GIVE AND GIVE AND NO ONE APPRECIATES ME AT ALL. I KNOW KIDS ARE JUST KIDS AND DONT REALLY KNOW ANY BETTER AND IT IS NOT THIER FAULT THAT THEY NEED SO MANY THINGS THAT IT IS SO HARD TO PROVIDE FOR THEM AND MYSELF ALL THE TIME. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE ALL OF THIS STRESS THAT IS IN MYLIFE. I LOVE MY KIDS AND I DONT WANT TO TAKE THINGS OUT ON THEM ANY MORE WHETHER IT BE VERBALY ABUSE OR JUST LETTING THEM SEE ME SO DOWN ALL THE TIME CRYING AND DEPRESSED AND BEAT DOWN ALL THE TIME. I WANT TO BE RELASED FROM THIS VERY DOWNING REALTIONSHIP I AM IN ,I CANT BE MYSELF I HAVE LET GO OF ALL MY FRIENDS AND JUST ABOUT ALL OF MY FAMILY AND IT HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORST FOR ME MENTALLY. HOW DO I OVER COME IT ALL I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN JUST BEING ALIVE IS A BLESSING AND I DONT SEEM TO EVEN APPRICIATE THAT AT TIMES. I JUST WANT THE OLD ME BACK SO I CAN LET MY KIDS SEE THE HAPPY ME AND NOT THE SAD ME ALL THE TIME. SO HERE IS WHAT I NEED TO BE RELIEVED FROM DEPRESSION, FROM JEALOUSY, FROM FEAR, FROM ADDICTION, FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO LOVE LIFE IN ITS SELF AND TO BE HEALED FROM ANY ILLNESSES THAT I MIGHT HAVE AND ANY ONE IN MY LIFE THAT IS SICK FROM SOMETHING TO CONTINUE TO BLESS MY CHILDREN AT ALL TIMES PROTECT THEM AND LET THEM LOVE THER SELFS AND NOT FALL INTO ANT OF MY SHORT COMINGS. IN JESUS NAME IT SHALL BE DONE!