I feel so much struggle inside. I know I need to get my life back to following God, but I am so overwhelmed with guilt. Every time I’m in a serious bind in my life is the time I ask for God’s help. However, I find myself leaving Him days after to repeat the same sinful nature and not seeing my life getting any better. I feel hopeless and stuck. I don’t have thoughts to end my life, however, I feel doomed as I cannot see my life getting any better. I have had so many struggles throughout my life and I feel that I’ve not known peace, joy, and happiness. I’m tired, I’m scared, I worry so much. I’m currently struggling with a situation where I am residing with my girlfriend in Mexico while trying to hold a new job in San Diego, California. My employer will not allow me to take my company laptop to Mexico as the company I work for is highly security based for the DoD. Luckily, they will hold my position for a short period of time to see if I can find a residence in California that would allow me to continue working with the company. I’m in a real financial bind at this time and I fear that I’m going to lose what little I have left. My prayer request is for: 1) to know peace with God and not feel guilty in asking for Him to come back into my life, seeking forgiveness, strength, and a light at the end of the tunnel, 2) either find a new employer that I can work remotely in Mexico or somewhere in the San Diego area, 3) if staying with my current employer, finding a place to live that I can afford.
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