Prayer for a Marriage on the rocks.
I'm so confused. Please help guide me to do the right thing. I recently separated from my husband. At that time i was talking to another man. I did see this man on a few occasions. I knew it would not be anything and I def knew he wouldn't be in my future. But something about him made me feel so good about myself.
I did things with him that I whole heartedly regret. I didn't leave my husband for him but he def gave me the push that I needed to finalize it. I am no longer seeing this other man. And the scary thing is is that I still don't want my husband back. My husband does not know about him and I don't want him to ever to! He is devasted enough that I left. He is trying so hard to fix our marriage.
I am just not sure I want to be married to him. He's a good man, but has some personal issues and he just doesn't give me the passion n love that I crave. He never has technically. I just went with the flow for years. This is not something I would have ever ever done in my life. I don't know how I got here. I feel guilty for throwing my marriage away. We have children who are our world. And I feel so guilty for not wanting to save it.
I'm scared and hate the fact that I'm hurting the man who took care of me n our children for years. Oh I'm just so messed up. Please God give me ur strength to do what I need to. I get so depressed thinking of being back with my husband n living with a man who can't fulfill my every need. I'm torn, miserable and depressed.
Please help me!