Prayer for Clarity and New Job/ Better FInances


(Memphis, TN)

First off, I would like to thank the Lord for allowing me to stay employed. I have been thru some things that I ultimately did to myself to jeopardize my career, but God has given me Mercy and Grace.

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Since leaving the Military, I have been blessed to find a job right away. But it seems that for each new job, there has been some dissatisfaction because I was never utilized in a way to use my gifts from God and just referred to as "staff".

My current job with same company I relocated cross country on my own dime, and thought it would help my career. But I haven't been so depressed in my life. Not to say that I am perfect, but all of my attempts to further my career has been denied at this current position. Additionally, because of my work background, I am not able to do what I thought I was initially set to do at this place.

Also, when I first started to work at this company, I came in not knowing any better and was low-balled. I have other co-workers that do half of the work I do, and get paid a lot more than I am and its frustrating because I am robbing Peter to pay Paul.

I really don't wanna sound like I am complaining, because of some things I did, I shouldn't have a job right now. But I feel like I am losing my mind there. I cry sometimes at work out of no where because I don't feel like I am respected, and when I do introduce solutions for work productivity, I am "side eyed" or someone finds fault in it and tries to take credit for corrections in any of my ideas.

I know that it may not be my season, but Lord, I am asking that you please give me a sign that the battle is not lost. I have an interview for what seems to be a great job, but I am 1 out of 4, and its not a paid move. I also worry about how background checks will go if I am blessed to get this job. I just want to stop being depressed and ready to end my life because I feel that there is no hope for me, no matter how many degrees I have, or what work I have done, its no good.

I know there are people who are worst off than me, and that's why I feel bad for feeling depressed and suicidal. I have to fake the funk at work and around friends cause I am ashamed that I feel this way. But I just don't know what else to do at this point. I am sure that its other things to add to my depression, but this job is a key factor. I just ask for any prayer and encouragement at this time so I don't lose my mind. Thank you and good night.

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Jul 16, 2015
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by: Patricia in Seattle

You have already made the first step by reaching out to God. Pray daily for God's will in your life and have faith that it will be so. There is no failure in God so keep moving in a positive direction. I am praying for your success.

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