Prayer for hope and love

hello, i am a young person and am struggling with severe feelings of despair and sadness. I have been carrying my pain and my past my entire life. i have been selfish, i have been foolish, i have been everything under the sun. I am asking for your prayers to conquer my loneliness and distrust of people around me. to increase my ability to love more completely and without limits.i need love. this is hard for me to say: I have denied myself this truth since my own loved ones wounded me deeply. I want to become strong in the knowledge that i am good. that i am worthy of love and am capable of loving others with all my heart.i was recently traveling and found myself in the midst of severe anxiety and despair. i wanted to die. For the two and a half hour plane ride, i cried. It felt like everything inside of me was pouring out and there was nothing i could do to stop it.i realized how much i need others and God in my life. In fact, I could not be alive without others or God. I realized that although I am not defined by my surroundings, my identity is the sum total of what is around me. namely, life, love, and the Lord.
for those of you who are struggling with depression/anxiety and read this. something I said to God whilst pouring my heart out. God,I don't want my life anymore. I don't like my body. I don't feel like i have worth. But, you gave this life, so i will treasure it. You created this body, so i will take care of it. You breathed my soul into me, you gave me love, so i will love it back.God, i need love. i ask for forgiveness, and the strength to face my guilt and my sins.i want my heart to be pure, and my soul to be clean.God, give me strength.I love you.
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee.
Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death, Amen.
God, I ask You to cover me and all Your children with Your most precious blood and protection, and bring us to everlasting life. Amen.