Prayer for My Brokenness
My Dearest Almighty God, Here I am again, another day to add to my more than 60 years.
Throughout my years, I have prayed to you. Most of the time giving thanks for all the things you have provided to me, for your care and love.
For the past few months, I have been so down; my sons lost their jobs and now I am doing my best to help them. For my oldest son, I moved out of my house leaving some of my things behind because I did not have room in a 500 sq ft apartment. He and his wife went through my things and gave what they did not want away. He has painted the walls in my home black, he sleeps until 1:00pm and has done nothing to look for a job. He is now mad at me because I told him that his giving my things away was wrong and I would pick up anything that is now left.
My other son decided that he would take back the refrigerator he gave me. So, I had to go buy a new one for the house where my oldest son is now living rent free with me paying his utilities. He has proclaimed the house to be his and will not let me enter. There is a broken window that I need to replace.
Dear God; have you turned your back on me? What have I done? I do not understand. Even when my son tells me I am a fool for believing in you, I respond that you are a God for all people and you love him. I tell him to put his problems at your feet and leave them there.
My God, Holey Father; I still believe in you. It seems that you have shut your ears and closed your eyes. My prayers go into the air, for I feel that you do not want to hear from me. I am sad, I am now alone because you called my husband home. I need a sign from you that you still care and you know that I am almost broken. God, please give me strength to meet each day, strength to look and find ways to help my children and to pay my obligations. Please show me the way.