Ready to End It All

by Vanessa
(Fayetteville, NC, USA)

Lord help me. I am tired, I am ready to give up on life. I wish I could end it all. Yes (suicide) at least my family would be financially taken care of and the stress would be over. I have failed as a mother and as a wife. I don't have the faith to continue on and I don't have any trust in God. Seems like he always lets me down and I can't depend on him. If I am cursed I wish he would let me know and I wouldn't pray or ask anything of him or expect anything from him. I am totally devastated. All I can do is cry.......I have no words to speak. Lord HELP!

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You are Zgods child. He knew you before you were born.
by: Anonymous

Please don't give up. Just watch the miracle happen in your life. God has great plans for you. Please let him do your will on him. He has his arms wrapped around you right now. Please feel his love.

Qqq
by: Anonymous

I'm ready I'm going to end it tonight. I can't I just can't I tried to get past this but I can't the thoughts come to me at least 6 times a day & I even get them at school now so I just saying. i tried

Love
by: Sharon

Never ever ever give up, be strong God loves you, have faith and he will make your days joyous. Believe, you are loved!

Never give up
by: Anonymous

Hi. Please don't give up. When you do you harm not only yourself but your family. Money will not make them happy in a world where their Mother and Wife committed suicide. I wish you strength,
help and guidance through these tough times.

Never give up
by: Anonymous

Hi. Please don't give up. When you do you harm not only yourself but your family. Money will not make them happy in a world where their Mother and Wife committed suicide. I wish you strength,
help and guidance through these tough times.

PLEASE don't
by: Anonymous

Please remember that God loves you so much, you can't focus on the negative because that negativity is what is going to lead you down into a spiral. GOD LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE. Although it may be hard to feel it it is there I promise!!! He provided you with amazing children that wouldn't be able to survive without their mommy. You need to have faith, don't give in to that evil temptation, don't let the dark side win!! Be a fighter with Jesus Christ! Help us win the battle of good and evil and we need another Child of God with us in Heaven to do it. Always remember us Christians are always struggling with scary battles everyday. We all have thoughts like these, but sometimes we need to just SNAP out of it and know that we will make it out alive with Jesus Christ! You need to remember that!

In Jesus Name I Pray, God Bless You
AMEN

GOD LOVES YOU
by: Anonymous

Please do not ever feel as though God has given up on you! That is the enemy whispering such horrid things throughout your ear! You have been blessed with beautiful children and family, instead of focusing on your troubles please count your blessings. God is just putting you through trials, he wants to test your faith and love, and we must never give up. Please, take into consideration how much God loves you, and don't succumb to the enemies evil hands, God will abound you with his righteous right hand. Always remember.

In Jesus Sweet Name we Pray,
Amen.

The Lord listens
by: Anonymous

Hi

Sometimes as mothers we go through very difficult times and feel like we are not good enough as either parents or spouses. But that is not true. This like all difficult phases will end, It may feel like God is not listening or that he is slow to act, no he knows your troubles. This is just a season in your life that you have to go through, have faith in him and do not lose hope in him. I also went through a phase when i thought ending it all would solve all problems and i blamed God for all that was wrong with my life. It took years to finally admit to myself that all the things that has happened were consequences of my choices and behavior, I turned my life around and today i am happy i held on. Sometimes things that are out of our control happen but it is up to use how we deal with them, Pray, guide your thoughts and have hope, because the devil only needs one weakness and will magnify it so much that we are tempted to dwell on it and lose trust in God. I will direct to you listen to Priscilla Shirer who is is an inspiration, she say start every battle on your knees in prayer and worship. It is not an easy road, but trust me it is worth it at the end. Think of you kids, I an 38 and if i think of losing my mother even now i shiver and dread it. No amount of money will ever replace you, HUG YOUR CHILDREN AND LET THEIR INNOCENCE GIVE YOU STRENGTH TO MAKE IT A DAY AT A TIME. Our prayers are with you.

Light
by: Anonymous

I pray that The Lord brings you his light, grace, and mercy. May he give you strength to face life's trials, and bring you his unfailing love. I will pray for you and yours...Amen

Ending it all...
by: Bolo

Your prayer really got me. I am feeling the exact same way right now, I have even started making arrangements in my life to leave my 3 precious dogs who are my only family taken care of when I'm gone. I even asked a friend to get me a gun and he agreed ( he doesn't know my real plans for using it).

I am 49, still healthy and have a job ( I may be losing it soon) bit the thing is that I don't give a damn anymore. sometimes the ONLY relief I have is the peace I will finally feel when I end it all.

My situation is different from yours, I am completely alone in this world, so I won't be missed at all.

Sometimes I feel the only thing that gets me by is the sick notion of knowing how it will end.

How do I cope with it? I try to get into my thick skull that all these years of suffering can't be in vain, there must be a mission, a purpose, something, I can't accept I was brought into this world just to suffer. That gives me hope that, in one way or another, god will not forsake me.

I hope this is useful dor you. You are in my prayers.

Ending it all...
by: Bolo

Your prayer really got me. I am feeling the exact same way right now, I have even started making arrangements in my life to leave my 3 precious dogs who are my only family taken care of when I'm gone. I even asked a friend to get me a gun and he agreed ( he doesn't know my real plans for using it).

I am 49, still healthy and have a job ( I may be losing it soon) bit the thing is that I don't give a damn anymore. sometimes the ONLY relief I have is the peace I will finally feel when I end it all.

My situation is different from yours, I am completely alone in this world, so I won't be missed at all.

Sometimes I feel the only thing that gets me by is the sick notion of knowing how it will end.

How do I cope with it? I try to get into my thick skull that all these years of suffering can't be in vain, there must be a mission, a purpose, something, I can't accept I was brought into this world just to suffer. That gives me hope that, in one way or another, god will not forsake me.

I hope this is useful dor you. You are in my prayers.

Ending it all...
by: Bolo

Your prayer really got me. I am feeling the exact same way right now, I have even started making arrangements in my life to leave my 3 precious dogs who are my only family taken care of when I'm gone. I even asked a friend to get me a gun and he agreed ( he doesn't know my real plans for using it).

I am 49, still healthy and have a job ( I may be losing it soon) bit the thing is that I don't give a damn anymore. sometimes the ONLY relief I have is the peace I will finally feel when I end it all.

My situation is different from yours, I am completely alone in this world, so I won't be missed at all.

Sometimes I feel the only thing that gets me by is the sick notion of knowing how it will end.

How do I cope with it? I try to get into my thick skull that all these years of suffering can't be in vain, there must be a mission, a purpose, something, I can't accept I was brought into this world just to suffer. That gives me hope that, in one way or another, god will not forsake me.

I hope this is useful dor you. You are in my prayers.

Stay Strong, Stay Positive, Stay Prayed Up
by: Anonymous

I read your comment and it brought chills to me. I have felt the same exact way. I have two beautiful kids and often times I feel like I am a failure and I should just end it all because I cant take on the hardship. I have a tendency to lose faith because I am also suffering financially. Please don't give up. Continue to pray and keep faith look at your children and say you will continue on for them. Life wouldn't be the same if you took your life. They above all else need you in their life. Your children will love you no matter what. Its easier said than done but I know that feeling and when I look at my kids it pains me to know that I in sort of way have failed them but then I remember that without me their lives wouldn't be the same. They would be filled with sorrow. Before things get better they have to get worse. Sound cliché but I believe that things will get better for you and for me sooner than later. This is a battle that you must put on the armor of God for and go into the trenches and come back victorious. The devil works overtime and tries to catch us at our most vulnerable moment. Stay strong, stay positive and stay prayed up. Amen

Stay Strong, Stay Positive, Stay Prayed Up
by: Anonymous

I read your comment and it brought chills to me. I have felt the same exact way. I have two beautiful kids and often times I feel like I am a failure and I should just end it all because I cant take on the hardship. I have a tendency to lose faith because I am also suffering financially. Please don't give up. Continue to pray and keep faith look at your children and say you will continue on for them. Life wouldn't be the same if you took your life. They above all else need you in their life. Your children will love you no matter what. Its easier said than done but I know that feeling and when I look at my kids it pains me to know that I in sort of way have failed them but then I remember that without me their lives wouldn't be the same. They would be filled with sorrow. Before things get better they have to get worse. Sound cliché but I believe that things will get better for you and for me sooner than later. This is a battle that you must put on the armor of God for and go into the trenches and come back victorious. The devil works overtime and tries to catch us at our most vulnerable moment. Stay strong, stay positive and stay prayed up. Amen

dont give up
by: Anonymous

Your Comment caught my eye , I often feel the same, but I continue to pray, can't pay my bills work a full and pt job, and its still a struggle. Don't give up, I often look at my children and then know how blessed I really am, sometimes struggling financially isn't all that bad as long as your family has health the rest will fall into place. God does listen, continue to pray.

Blessings on the way
by: Anonymous

I'm believing for you and I KNOW that God is a father of blessings and promises. He has these waiting for you as you stay still in the faith that surpasses all your understanding and impatience. Hold on and keep holding on. Quiet your soul and listen to the still talk of God in your heart. If I can believe this for my child and she too was in the same boat and she is still here to day then I know that I can call out to God for you. He will answer. He's already answering and I just want you to wait for Him to show you that life will not be perfect but it WILL be worth it. I love you.

You are not alone.
by: Anonymous

Don't take your life. Talk to your family let them know how you feel! Get help but before having bad thoughts, get help! This will pass give it time, I hope you feel better. I don't know you but I care. :(

special person
by: Anonymous

I have never sent a comment before but I read your prayer and just wanted to let you know that you may not feel like it but you are a special person. the things you feel like you are a failure at you need to surrender to god let him lead your way from this day forward. I have been in the same situation as a husband and father just when I couldn't take anymore I turned toward god and gave him my burdons. I laid everything at gods feet and am working as hard as I can to prove myself worthy of being the person I really want to be. So I guess I'm saying please don't give up because the hardest things to achieve always have the greater reward at the end.

A prayer for you
by: Anonymous

I am sorry you feel this way. My dad committed suicide when I was 3 years old. I haven't gotten over it. Your children need you no matter how old they are. I'll say a prayer for you, to see light in your life. Read the secret, God is amazing trust him. Be patient and be thankful for being alive.

Mother you are blessed
by: Anonymous

Mother. You are among those who have attained only what a mother can. You are that which many could never be. You have been blessed with every turn of your eye for your children are all the strength you will ever need. Therefore look upon them when you waver and they will straighten your step and fill your heart with resolve.
This moment in your life, and it is but a moment that may seem like an eternity, is but a temporary mis-step in life.. Mother, mother, you are and always will be the permanent stride in your children's life and through your own.
How could you not? What could possibly challenge your position that you as a mother could not overcome. It is simply not possible for you to fail.

Mother you are blessed
by: Anonymous

Mother. You are among those who have attained only what a mother can. You are that which many could never be. You have been blessed with every turn of your eye for your children are all the strength you will ever need. Therefore look upon them when you waver and they will straighten your step and fill your heart with resolve.
This moment in your life, and it is but a moment that may seem like an eternity, is but a temporary mis-step in life.. Mother, mother, you are and always will be the permanent stride in your children's life and through your own.
How could you not? What could possibly challenge your position that you as a mother could not overcome. It is simply not possible for you to fail.

Keep on believing
by: Anonymous

I read your prayer for help and want you to know I have thought of the same thing many times. What truly stops me is my own selfish need to see my children grow up, to kiss my wife and to see all of Gods miracles on a daily basis. Finances can be stressful but the truth is God will take care of us. Having faith is as simple as knowing the sun will come up tomorrow. Trusting in God is as easy as realizing He has kept us out of true danger. Believing in the Lord and knowing that he is bringing us through this hard time for a reason, the reason that He has for us being here. Our struggles will help Gods plan unfold and we are all a part of it. Please hang in there and know that all of us are praying for you.

stay strong <3
by: Anonymous

Please don't end it all! Think about how devastated your family would be. Being financially secure is not enough. THEY NEED YOU. Don't give up now! You have come this far! No one knows the future, and yours may be a very bright one! But you will never know if you give up now <3
I am praying for you and your family xoxo
STAY STRONG

Please don't give up.
by: Anonymous

To the world you may be nothing, but to someone you are the world. All it takes is one answered prayer, faith and resilience to turn your entire world around.


Please don't give up.
by: Anonymous

To the world you may be nothing, but to someone you are the world. All it takes is one answered prayer, faith and resilience to turn your entire world around.


God is listening
by: Anonymous

God is listening to you, He hears your prayer. Just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he does not care. Deuteronmy 20:4
"For the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against enemies, to you the victory" ended your life does not make you feel any better, it makes the people who love and care about you hurt. It will hurt more people then it will hurt you. God puts you through these things to make you stronger and to see how much you really do have. You will get through this. But God does everything for a reason. You may not know that reason right now. But someday you will

God is listening
by: Anonymous

God is listening to you, He hears your prayer. Just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he does not care. Deuteronmy 20:4
"For the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against enemies, to you the victory" ended your life does not make you feel any better, it makes the people who love and care about you hurt. It will hurt more people then it will hurt you. God puts you through these things to make you stronger and to see how much you really do have. You will get through this. But God does everything for a reason. You may not know that reason right now. But someday you will

God is listening
by: Anonymous

God is listening to you, He hears your prayer. Just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he does not care. Deuteronmy 20:4
"For the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against enemies, to you the victory" ended your life does not make you feel any better, it makes the people who love and care about you hurt. It will hurt more people then it will hurt you. God puts you through these things to make you stronger and to see how much you really do have. You will get through this. But God does everything for a reason. You may not know that reason right now. But someday you will

It will be okay.
by: Anonymous

I know it may seem like things are rough now, but just keep your trust in the Lord and things WILL get better! Continue to pray and know the Lord is with you! Don't leave your precious children, they need you and know that you need the Lord! Keep holding on!

be strong
by: Anonymous

Br strong i have felt the lows but the lord is with you count your
Blessings and see how small all else is thank you lord oh mighty one we praise you lord thank you lord

be strong
by: Anonymous

Br strong i have felt the lows but the lord is with you count your
Blessings and see how small all else is thank you lord oh mighty one we praise you lord thank you lord

be strong
by: Anonymous

Br strong i have felt the lows but the lord is with you count your
Blessings and see how small all else is thank you lord oh mighty one we praise you lord thank you lord

be strong
by: Anonymous

Br strong i have felt the lows but the lord is with you count your
Blessings and see how small all else is thank you lord oh mighty one we praise you lord thank you lord

be strong
by: Anonymous

Br strong i have felt the lows but the lord is with you count your
Blessings and see how small all else is thank you lord oh mighty one we praise you lord thank you lord

Hold on dear one
by: Anonymous

Please hang in there dear one. I know how you feel, I've been there myself. But God does love you and he wantsyou to be happy. Let him guide your way. Ask him to open the eyes of your heart and see His love for you. You are imortant to so many people around you and you are important to our Lord. He does not look upon you as a dissapointment, you are one of His sheep that he is trying to gather back up. Open your heart to the Lord and believe he is hearing you dear one. He will surprise you, you just have to hold on to faith and believe.

i'm on the same boat...
by: Mike

i am practically on the same boat... asking the same questions... am i cursed, does He hear my prayers?

I am alone, my wife left years ago. I have been jobless for 5 months now and a woman i really fell hard for just dumped me 2 days ago. It's been this way all my adult life... and i just turned 50 a month ago.

Am i cursed? Well, yesterday i found these 2 verses in the Book of John...

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him."

and this, that really gave me hope though i still hurt...

"Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy."

He has His plans for us and i'm quite it will be more than we expected. I hope this helps. Stay strong..

Dark hills
by: Anonymous


God walks the dark hills
The ways, the by ways
He walks through the billows
Of life's troubled sea
He walks through the cold dark night
The shadows of midnight
God walks the dark hills
Just to guide you and me
(CHORUS)
God walks the dark hills
To guide my footsteps
He walks everywhere
By night and by day
He walks in the silence
On down the highway
God walks the dark hills
To show me the way

God walks in the storm
The rain and the sunshine
He walks on the billows
On through glimmering light
Helps us walk up the mountain so high
Cross our rivers through valleys
God walks the dark hills
'Cause He loves you and me

You will get through this
by: Anonymous

You will get through this. God is real. Give him a chance to make you better. Nothing happens on ourown time but his time.

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