Thoughts of ending it all!!!
by Eddie Colbert
The prayer that I just read, "Please Forgive me for Killing Myself", is exactly how I feel and is where I am at in life. I am 44 years old and have nothing. I live with my parents. I have been to prison many times. I went to college many times to no avail. Nothing ever gets better but just gets worse! I have the mark of the Beast( social security number) that now hinders me. I accepted Jesus and yet went back to being an awful person sinning all the time. I don't know what God wants with me? Praying is a joke. I feel like there is no God sometimes. Anyway, I am in trouble again with the law and I just do not want to deal with it. Maybe I am crazy or just weak in the mind but I do not want to go on anymore in this screwed up world(earth). If I kill myself I hope I can get a second chance if and when Jesus comes back. I am tired of this life and feel like I am just living a lie. Help me God. I have given up all hope I am just living. I am hollow inside and feel just hopeless!!!!!!!!! Help me please. I think this is what you want??? Is it? Will you give me a second chance? Will you let me go to Heaven???