Why am i not worthy enough?
(Turlock Ca )
Please God, I have sat in silence and talked to you thru prayer and meditation and nothing.. I listen for you I wait for you and nothing...My husband of 24 years left almost a year ago.. he dosent want to come back its now the holidays I feel I cannot go on I cry every day everynite people think I am so happy because of the fake smile i put on during the day...
But I really dont want to do this anymore...I have 4 kids they all ask me for things...I dont want to do this anymore I dont want to be a single parent anymore...When I go to church I dont feel comfort I get depressed seeing all the families together.. I was faithful i did all of God Commands I was a good person.
I feel so alone lonely barealy able to move...I dont want to do this anymore Why God Please just give me a small sign of hope...I want to die and just go away... Please why am i not worthy enough for you. I feel abandoned God you said you would not leave me..
You would be there for me.. PlZ God when you dont talk to me I feel like you left me also just as my husband did because I just keep asking myself why am I not worthy enough that my husband and God left me.